You know what I'm saying?
N*ggas don't understand why
What you mean, n*gga, why the f*ck I pop pills?
Cause I want to get away from this motherf*cking world
Why I smoke is cause I want to space out
Why the f*ck I drink?
N*gga, I drink cause I don't want to feel sh*t, n*gga
N*gga, do you know what I go through on a everyday basis, n*gga?
You see the bright lights, you see the fame, you see me at night shining
In the daytime, I'm still a regular n*gga
Still walk in the same shoes as y'all, you know what I'm saying?
What you know about dropping out of school and not having no future?
N*gga, my future is this rap sh*t
So I gotta do it
I got a ten month old I gotta look out for
And gotta be here to take care of
It ain't fair cause it ain't her father
She on earth but she don't really know
That her daddy don't make that much
What you think that does to a n*gga confidence
Especially when knowing that I gotta be that rock
Just to provide in the night, then I'm committing suicide
Motherf*cker, finna grab that gun
Blow my brains out, boom!
And I hope I don't wake up
Hope a n*gga meet the maker
Just got a call from my girl saying that she want to break up
I hope it's no child support papers
No, I won't pay cause
Pushing it to the limit and trying to be the father that a n*gga never had
I promised myself whenever that I grow up and I have my own kid
That I would be a better dad
I'm stranded
So I turn to bars cause
I got some problems and they feel like problem solvers
Though I shouldn't do that, I'm f*cking up my body at the same time
But please don't worry
Talk about the bright lights and the night life
But today I'm finna give y'all true stories
For real
Problems after problems
Wonder why I'm on it
Popping pills, sipping liquor, every day smoking
My baby momma tripping, she say we need some bread
Lord, tell me why my uncle died, I need to clear my head
Uncle Ryan gone, I'm thinking that I'm finna overdose
It's truth be told, my n*gga, this is real life
It's like somebody straight killed my spirit
Even though it's part of living, man, it still don't feel right
It's like the day I got the call from Austin
I called up Boston, told him that I was lost, he said
"I know it's real bro, but, man, keep your head up"
But it's till I bring my n*gga back from the dead
Feeling like I'm tripping but I'm not